IS THERE ANY PRESSURE?

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don’t let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again
Cause I fear I might break
And I fear I cant take it
Some night I’ll be awake
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It’s getting closer now
We’re better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It’s getting closer now
We’re better off without you
Now that I’m losing hope
And there’s nothing else to show
For all of the days that were spent
Carrying away from hope
Somethings I’ll never know
And I had to let them go
I’m sitting all alone
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It’s getting closer now
We’re better off without you


Pressure? Yes! Do I feel like this? Hmm, I don’t know for sure. Since I moved from my beloved hometown, I don’t feel like someone presses me. hell no. im happy -_-
Not actually. Seems happy but….. if yah forget it.
I like all of my life now. Except one damn thing, I don’t like to be ……’s colleger. Don’t know why. Not about this college is not favorite place and I’m sorry I cant explain any longer.
I’m willing if my fate says if I have to be here. may be I can fix it several years later. Oh no, I mean next year if I have permition. Several days ago, I really felt upset. I really felt alone. Even my brother didn’t know why I cried. When I remind all of my past I cried then I called my beloved mom. My mom was confused too. she didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know how I am now. When she was here, I always told all of my worst days. She knows me better. But, now I don’t even know where do I have to go.
Everything is damning me now. Everything. Everywhere I head just makes me down. It just makes me worse. I don’t have any chance, any choice, and I just have to follow what he has given to me. fckn quote says “He doesn’t give what we want, he gives us what we need”. But, whats about me? I don’t need this fckn circumstance. I do hate this circumstance. Seems like everything blames into me. I don’t feel any comfort.
All days I spent just feels like hell. Moreover, I just got several damn things and the worst things I have ever felt. He disturbed my bad mood. He disturbed my fckn day. Oh, I know what to do. Just ignore all he does and will never respon anything. HE IS THE MOST UNIMPORTANT THING. I guess I’m blinded by his behaviour and then I know what is the effect. And I know I have to keep my eyes widely open. I have pretended if I’m okay and I’m almost tired but I have to pretend If I will be okay. Is it my fault. Hard breath and slowly spell Y E S. too late regret is useless thing. Yes, too late realize if I have bad habit. But there is no time anymore.

I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry readers. It’s damn enough. Thank