inexplicable feeling

Incredible thing. I have to forget him :’) how could?

A year goes by fast. I think, last year has left lots of memory. Yeah, I can’t even think if that “mind” will come again. Mr. X. do you even know and remember the way we stare? Yeah, you may answer “where, when, how?”

For God’s sake, last night was incredibly making me mad. I dreamed of you hey mr. X :’)

Unbelievable dream. Really, I wished I would never get up again if all day long dreaming of you. I felt very very very glad when I was with you in my dream of course.

First, I dreamed we met in a party. Like fairytale, you stared into my eyes then reached my hand (you may think I'm “lebay” -___-) then you directly got …………………… *better skip* hehehehhe. You felt in love, affectionate, enjoyable, so much more thing I cant even describe how it felt. Weekkeke. Really, it felt so fuckin true. Until now, I still feel those. Then, I brought me into your house and met your parents. Hahaha for God’s sake, I never did this. But, I found the man who did this then again in my dream. Oooh my God, please make this being deed.

I regret why I should get up then :’( I am willing if I will never get hell up again yet met you forever. Or maybe I will meet you then being yours. Oh my God. Why did you send him into my life and my dream? I never wished like hell. I just want to figure him out. Why should You create fckn thing called “LOVE”. I'm not brave enough to call this “LOVE”. I promise, I will never look for that damn thing. For God’s sake after through my lovely night, I will never get into another love.

lemme show you a song which tells mine :)

I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

(Instrumental solo)

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

inexplicable feeling

SECRETLY LOVING SOMEONE IS THE BEST FEELING WHICH CAN’T BE DESCRIBED YET COULD HURT YOU THE MOST

I can say nothing at all about words above. Mostly right and eventually affects nothing. How could I say like that? Really, honestly, and seriously it doesn’t need to worry about. but but, exception! I want to tell about the truth. Ehehe don’t be so serious. I just want to share mine. I realize, not at all in here is wrong and bad. I can take good side and lesson to learn.

First, secretly admiring someone. He is talkative, kindhearted (maybe), and smart enough (looks from his university ehehe). Actually, I never thought if he is smart because of his messy. Who knows? Then, I looked for his account. Possibly, he has account. Then I got his twitter acc. Really, it makes me foolish. He is very humorous and silly enough. Then, something shows if he is smart enough. Oh my God, how could I be so sightless? I judged books by its cover. It was damning me so much. Yes, I learnt from mine :) thanks God, You give me the truth. Every second, I read his timeline. He rarely tweets actually. Because of his tweets, I admire man like him. Emm, flash back to my past. I like a man who is naughty but smart. yap! Don’t know why. He doesn’t look naughty just messy enough but he is smart ;D he was single at that time. He never tweeted about love life or his girl or something like that. Theeeeeeeeen, I opened his acc. He is not in relationship but, after I opened his timeline. He already has girlfriend. Hehehe. Not actually jealous but something like want to have someone who takes care. Damn! I am single now. I don’t regret anymore but. Ouch! Really, it is inexplicable feeling oh for God’s sake. Then, thanks for the fate given God :) You give me the best. I can learn from it. Unwisely judging people is not good. Secretly admiring someone is unfortunate yet hurts. Having to move on (like I care)